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fodder

the pebbles you've arranged,
in the sand they're strange.
they speak to me like constellations,
as we lie here.

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    • Tuesday, August 29, 2006

    Speed

    Eventually, the journey ends and the destinations are arrived at. But, at what speed, can I ask?

    It's funny how I want to speed up some and slow down the others.

    1. It has to be a trade-off from unpretentiousness. Are you really going to buy that plain cup of coffee which comes in a somewhat weird, somewhat quirky packaging because it serves just as much purpose as the classic double shot expresso served in a glass, so untainted by anything else?

    Or is it simply because classics are so beautiful they are out of reach?

    That glass of plain coffee may not take to it, sir. So I suggest you cancel that order.

    ***

    2. So, I guess everyone noticed.

    What's so wrong with it?

    I don't see you going around questioning those who already were.

    I am merely making an effort to adhere to the standards set because being out of place is such an oddly saddening feeling, you know?

    Still a far cry away anyway. Can't wait to see the '4' but should I pace myself out a little?

    ***

    3. The ignition. Definitely needs to be lighted faster.

    Gogogo. No need to stop and think.

    Fuck. I hate it when people don't keep to their promises.

    It's the cherished feeling that is worth cherishing, hello hello.

    22:59

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    Monday, August 28, 2006

    History

    I thought I'd shift my blog to this new add so I could hopefully, write about happier and more meaningful things and block out all the previous angst-filled posts I used to dutifully flood my old blog with.

    Scratch that.

    I thought wrong.

    Several months on, and I'm still falling back on the same pathetic situations.

    (When was the last time I cried in public?)

    Vague posts = Angst on suppressed mode.

    20:56

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    Wednesday, August 23, 2006

    The Decision that Should Have Been Made Long Ago

    So I have a sore neck and a quite horrible headache and I'm typing this away amidst these little physical ailments.

    Oh, and to digress a bit: I'm a little disturbed by the sore neck after being reminded of what happened to the male lead in that thai horror movie, "Shutter". Apparently, a ghost had been sitting on his shoulders which explained his sore neck. :S Isn't this the 7th month?!

    Okay, never mind about that. I probably just need a new pillow.

    Yeah, so the major decision I've made is (surprisingly) not related to my hair.

    I've decided to...

    1. Clock in at least 3 hours of mugging time each for my 2 econs modules and another 1.5 hours for the rest of my modules per week. Translation: A minimum of 10.5 hours spent on studying on top of curriculum hours. Because I am tired of NOT knowing what goes on.

    2. Still exercise regularly on top of that. Continue with pilates, maybe? :)

    3. Sleep no later than midnight and wake up by 730 every morning! Late nights are really no good.

    And I have about 300 things to do this weekend. Is the decision a challenge or what. :/

    10:40

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    Sunday, August 20, 2006

    Closet

    "She would sit beside the windowsill, and to this day, I don't know what she was thinking about.

    But her eyes could kill you with one look, and they were deeper than any ocean on the face of this earth.

    She was fragile; you could tell just by looking at her that she went through so much and then she turns around and smiles.

    And you know that she is strong.

    You know that she is going to be okay...

    And really, that is exactly what I want. To be okay, and to smile, after all of this."

    I have no clue who wrote this, but it got me to finally overcome the bout of blogging inertia I've incurred through the weeks and I wanna quickly jot it down before I lose "the feeling" of even wanting to note it down somewhere.

    I'm a closet-one too many things and this closet of mine, I'm afraid, is full till the extent that it's on the verge of bursting. It's suffocating in here.

    If I talk about school now, would it seem like a mandatory thing to do, or would it appear to be that I am truly concerned about what goes on there.

    And if I'm truly concerned, is it a want or need thing?

    Needs are basic but they shouldn't fill up my entire life.

    Another vague post but I shall inject a little bimbotic-ness where I'm about to end: I HATE MY HAIR. Mid-length. Totally mah fan. I wanna just walk out of my house with gorgeous flowing locks but this limp, lacklustre lump of thing just refuses to cooperate.

    Hmph!

    02:43

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    Sunday, August 13, 2006

    Consequences.

    I beat red lights on purpose, with the intention to risk but no guarantee of being capable of bearing the consequences.

    Is this stupidity or what, huh. Hah...

    01:44

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    Saturday, August 05, 2006

    Frivolous

    adj : not serious in content or attitude or behavior; "a frivolous novel"; "a frivolous remark"; "a frivolous young woman"

    Finallly, some inspiration to blog (!!).

    I hate frivolous people. They make me lose my sleep. :( Things are hardly ever perfect but I always picture the perfect scenarios in my mind.

    Gotta scratch that habit. Soon.

    Dammit. Unsweetened coffee first thing in the morning, on an empty stomach. My heart's in a state of flux right now; it's beating FAST.

    Ugh.

    09:36

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